Snitch – Week 5

April 12th. Wednesday

My first check-in is tomorrow. I’m nervous. To be honest, I’m just as nervous about getting there as I am about the actual appointment. The clinic is over 20 minutes from campus and I don’t have a car. Just getting there on time is going to be a battle, on top of convincing them to let me continue taking Accutane (kidding).

Accutane is messing with me mentally. I’ve said that a few times in past entries, and I’m saying it now. However……… I don’t know if I’m going to tell the dermatologist this. I’ve talked to friends about it, one of whom also took Accutane when he was younger. He said that he got super depressed and got put on antidepressants. It sounded altogether unpleasant. Don’t get me wrong, it sucked for him; I’m just not sure if I want that. If I thought Accutane was causing me depression or some other serious mental health problem, I would reconsider. Where I stand, I think Accutane definitely gets in the way of my functionality, but not in a dangerous or unyielding way. I’ve made time for myself to unwind, I’ve reached out to friends, letting them know I’m on a medication that can make me act abnormally… I’m supported, by myself and others.

If I thought Accutane was causing me depression or some other serious mental health problem, I would reconsider. Where I stand, I think Accutane definitely gets in the way of my functionality, but not in a dangerous or unyielding way. I’ve made time for myself to unwind, I’ve reached out to friends, letting them know I’m on a medication that can make me act abnormally… I’m supported, by myself and others.

In terms of progress, I’m not totally sure where I’m at. Whenever I’d use OTC meds for acne, the first week seemed to go great, but after that I wouldn’t see any difference. With Accutane, either the improvement has been so subtle and gradual that I haven’t noticed, or there hasn’t been any improvement. My hope is that the dermatologist tells me tomorrow.

 

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