March 15th. Wednesday
I started taking Accutane today. Claravis. I read this review online about how this one person took Accutane and their face cleared in 11 days. What a load of bullshit, am I right?
Finger still crossed though… That’s just not how Accutane works. This is how it works.
There’s really nothing to be done at this point. It’s way too early on for any symptoms to crop up. I’m just sitting here and waiting. Which is, in some ways, a lot worse than actually dealing with symptoms. If you’re taking Accutane, it’s probably because you’ve tried everything else. They told you this was the one. This would work. And you’re tired of waiting. You’re tired of hoping. You know it’ll work and you’re just ready for all of this to be over. And besides, what if that 11-day guy wasn’t full of crap?
I’ll give you a rough idea of what my acne looks like: I get pustules pretty much anywhere on my face (particularly my upper cheeks and forehead, but also right below my lower lip, my nose/face crease, my temples, and jawline. And then less frequently right on my nose and lower cheeks. So basically everywhere) and back, and less often on my neck. Not super frequently; I’d say two or three a week. Just often enough to say that I have acne, not just a few pimples here and there. I also breakout with them red bump things sometimes. It’s sometimes hard to tell what’s been popped and what’s just a bump.
My acne has been pretty consistent for all seven years. Which is nice: consistency is nice. But the acne isn’t. Right before this, I was on Minocycline and Aczone, neither of which did anything, which means that I started Accutane on a clean slate. In the sense that I basically looked how I would normally look (as described in the paragraph above). I remember going to CVS to get the Aczone and the pharmacist saying, “do you know how much this costs?” and telling her that I didn’t. She flipped around the little cash register periscope-display and it read $532. “Do you have a coupon?” she asked. I did, but I had to run home and get it. I rationed my Aczone very frugally in the next months. I knew that the coupon would run out eventually, and then I’d be in for it. I was really frustrated that both Minocycline and Aczone only prevented acne for as long as you were taking them. You have to keep paying money to prevent acne. It’s like a clear face subscription. Which is kinda messed up. I guess it’s for the best that it didn’t work? Another flurry of hope crushed, but it wasn’t a great solution.
It’s only the first day, but after seven years… when they tell you this is the one, you really can’t wait.
I’ll let you know